Ah, my last blog post of 2012 and once again I will build it around the past two year-ending posts – Posts that have emphasized transitions, growth, and adventure. Narratives that have attempted to shine a special light on all the beauty within all of those people that have interwoven their magic throughout my life. They have been the people who have led me, who have carried me, and who are within me in a very deep and profound way. This last post of the year is for you.
The travel this past year seems to really have been a metaphor for my life, starting out with an all-inclusive in Mexico, then Hawaii for a Triathlon, and topping it all off with another trip to the Nevada desert and Burning Man. Pampering (more like, partying), competing, and adventuring. What a delightful way of living life, right?
This year has also been about transitions and adapting to new ways of being (Darwin would be proud). I have found a deeper and more meaningful Yoga practice with many wonderful friends within a rich and supportive community. I have worked on my breath, my poses, my practice, and it in turn has worked on me, helping me in finding many pieces of my self. The here and the now has never been more special.
From that awesome place, my mind has been blown by an expansion into an unbelievable Acro Yoga community. A playful, fun, athletically fucking challenging existence where there is no other option but to find one’s intelligent edge whilst mixing a bit of fear with its antithesis of complete relaxation; Such diametric opposable forces, completing many a new pose and in so, completing me, in many different ways.
It has been a year of humility too. I have been humbled by the people around me and the struggles that they face every day and while I may have a few here and there, I am okay, and so grateful for so many beautiful people in my life. I have found peace – fleeting at times and radiant at others. Not always the easiest of journeys for me, but so worthwhile, and very much still a work in progress.
For any of you, who know me, or have read any of my ramblings within these posts, you know that I am a huge, Elizabeth Gilbert fan. No other book, Eat, Pray, Love has so resonated with me on such a deep and meaningful level. Lately, I find myself, remembering and reciting entire quotes (with the help of google, of course) from that book:
We search for happiness everywhere, but we are like Tolstoy’s fabled beggar who spent his life sitting on a pot of gold, under him the whole time. Your treasure–your perfection–is within you already. But to claim it, you must leave the buy commotion of the mind and abandon the desires of the ego and enter into the silence of the heart.
That is my work for the New Year ahead, to find a little silence, to be at peace with myself, and to re-calibrate myself by bringing a little Yin back to my high-energy Yang.
Life simply doesn’t happen all around you, YOU happen to it. You choose, you want, you engage, you plan, you implement, and when things work out, you celebrate. When things don’t work out, you stress. This is how life works. YOU are the common denominator to ALL the good and ALL the bad in your life. That is not saying that sometimes really, really bad things occur to which we can assign no blame whatsoever, it is just saying that YOU control the majority of your own destiny!
Today is New Years Eve 2012, and my thought that goes out to each and every one of you – old and new acquaintances alike is, “Make 2013 the year that you want it to be.” Get in touch with yourself, your needs, your desires, your creativity, your moxie, your determination and create your very own year for you.
I wrote that same paragraph for 2011 and 2012 – and while it has been a bitch of a year in some respects, it has been so outstanding in many others. It is about the journey, and riding the waves as they coast up and down beneath us.
I hope to do the same in 2013 – hopefully cutting myself some slack, and learning from some of my mistakes and being kind and gentle to those around me (and myself), because everyone is fighting a fucking battle of some kind. BE THE CHANGE that you want to see (Obama-ism). Each and every single day, change one little thing, and be genuinely surprised when at the end of the year that you are so much closer to being the person that you actually want to be, and there is nothing more sexy or more appealing than watching someone who has that inner swagger going-on! That person is so confident, secure and in-touch with who they really are! That is beautiful! Namaste. Peace to all with as much love, light and laughter as I can muster. Create YOU, beautiful you!
PS – “Operation Self-Esteem–Day Fucking One.”
~Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love